Why blog?

12.26.12

I have been sitting here thinking and thinking, and frankly praying about what my New Year's Resolution(s) would be this year. It came down to taking art classes, getting back into one ballet class a week and writing a blog. I have been told I am a "writer" whatever that means. I have always had opinions and advice to give. There are times my heart aches with the things I should have said, or the advice I could have given. This will be my outlet for these emotions, the years of life lessons, the wrinkles that have aged my face in my hardest times and the smile lines that make my face seem lighter in the sweetest times. I had the opportunity to blog while my daughter was fighting for her life in a Seattle hospital for 48 days and I realized then that I have a knack for putting my feelings on a page...on a screen.

I tend to believe the people with the best advice are the ones who have lived through the most. I often ask the Lord why He chose me to endure the trials I have but I also see the wisdom that I have gained. Truthfully I thought once I was married and living as an adult that the trials would end. Ha! I thought for sure I had lived through my share of tribulations. That was naive and silly. But that realization was not the end, it was not where I threw in the towel and said, "I'm done Lord. That was too much! How dare you?" No, when the trials come and your faith is tested, that is when the healing begins. That is where the wisdom plants its seed in your heart and in your mind. That is where you stand a little taller and say, I overcame...and not on my own but with the help and the strength of the Lord.

So...really...this blog will be whatever is in my heart on any given day. I am not super crafty, I am not passionate about DYI, I am woman who has a lot to say and wants to encourage you. If I can do it, so can you...that sort of thing. Bits and pieces of who I once was and who I am today will come out in my posts.

Note: I started to write a description of my "life" and frankly it's just too long. My stories will come out when it is time. Some may never, some I am still healing from and don't know if I will ever be able to publicly share them. Thank you to those brave souls who are willing to share and encourage through their darkest times.

This blog will be my outlet of what I NEED to share. What I feel called to write. My joys and my sorrows...my PURITY in PANDEMONIUM.